This is the emotion I feel .. Blank.
How can I feel so blank yet my mind be whirling with so many thoughts? One would think that would mean I was feeling anything BUT blank. Express them here you say?? It would be of huge relief if I could sort through them all and organize them even enough to get them onto "paper" because then, maybe, I could start to make sense of it all. I am continually amazed at how many directions a mind can be pulled and how many different ways a heart can love and break all at the same time.
God truly must have created us; mind, body, and soul. There is no other explanation as to how our Brain, Hearts and Body can all be feeling different emotions simultaneously, yet still working all together to "function normally". It's as a result of His hand that we are so complex, yet simple. So strong, yet can crumble in an instant. So the obvious answer would be to turn to Him to ask for comfort and guidance right? Why is this so hard for me? Cause I know what the answer is ... and I don't wanna hear it. I don't wanna do what's right .. and I don't wanna walk away from my wants .. I don't want to ask the question because I know I wont like the answer.So until then ... I chose Blank.
