Sometimes my feelings get hurt .. sometimes it's because of something I've done to myself .. sometimes it's because it's what I have done to someone else and lastly sometimes it's because of what someone does to me. It's the last one I want to address for just a second.
The worst part of hurt feelings is when the person who hurt my feelings hasn't really "done" anything to me. Maybe it's what they didn't say .. maybe it's what they didn't do ... maybe it's decisions they made based on their own world that somehow effected (or affect - I will be 100 years old and never get that one right) my feelings. It's those moments where I realize that maybe I'm not as important to someone or something as that person is to me. Is it that the person's fault? Is it their fault I go out of my way for them and it seems they don't or wouldn't in return? ORRR is it that because I am the one closest them, I am supposed to just understand and not be the person with the hurt feelings and "just know better". If that last part is the case .. when do we stop hurting those close to us and realize they are the important ones???
Grrr ... I'm just sitting in a situation where talking to the person wont change how I already feel and will only result in more hurt feelings (probably me hurting them cause I am sure this will come to as shock to most of you but I TEND to be a bit bitchy when upet, LMAO). The outcome will be what it will be and this is where I'm supposed to just smile and nod ... Great, I am freakin SUPER at doing that.
